When Failure Felt Like Disqualification
There were moments when failure felt permanent.
Not just mistakes—but the kind that linger, the kind that make you question your worth, your judgment, and your standing before God. I assumed that once I failed badly enough, faith would move on without me.
I thought grace had limits I'd eventually reach.
The Lie That Kept Me Down
The quiet lie was simple: You should know better by now.
That lie kept me stuck—replaying errors, rehearsing regret, and measuring myself by what went wrong instead of what God was still doing. Faith felt distant, not because God withdrew, but because shame kept me looking backward.
Discovering Grace in the Aftermath
What surprised me most was how gently faith met me after failure.
There was no lecture.
No condemnation.
No withdrawal of purpose.
Instead, there was grace—steady, underserved, and patient. Grace didn't erase consequences, but it restored direction. It reminded me that falling didn't cancel calling.
Rising Didn't Happen All at Once
Getting back up wasn't instant.
It happened slowly—through honesty, humility, and small steps forward. Faith didn't rush me past the lesson. It walked me through it.
Each step rebuilt confidence—not in myself, but in God's willingness to continue the story.
Learning That Growth Often Follows Failure
I've come to believe that some of the deepest growth happens after the fall.
Failure stripped away illusions.
Grace rebuilt what mattered.
Faith matured into something sturdier and more compassionate.
I became less afraid of mistakes and more committed to learning.
Hope That Refused to Let Go
Faith didn't pretend failure didn't hurt.
It simply refused to let failure have the final word.
Hope re-entered quietly—not as optimism, but as assurance that God's work wasn't finished. That my story wasn't over. That rising was still possible.
And maybe that's the most uplifting truth faith has taught me:
Falling doesn't end the story.
Grace keeps writing.
"For though the righteous fall seven times, they rise again." — Proverbs 24:16